Every person with bipolar is different. I can tell when I'm in a downcycle because I have an unbearable ache to be silent--I can't stand hearing the sound of my voice, or seeing any sign of myself in the world--& I'm furious with myself for not just going away & being silent forever.
It passes, & my downcycles used to be much, much worse, but when they come around they carry such history.
The trick is not being angry at all the waste.
Feed gratitude for still being here at all.
@MLClark You matter lots, and I hope when your brain is telling you otherwise that I can stand as a counterpoint to the dark.
You've been such a kind and caring friend. You're always listening and encouraging me as well as so many others.
You make a difference and I hope to make a difference for you as I can.
@MLClark I've got some congestion in my chest and my energy is still weird.
That said, I'm doing ok. I hope I feel better in the morning.