📜 So - middle of the night reflection, because I can't seem to post the Patreon piece I need to without saying something deeper here, o CoSo, where the "human" in me is at its safest:

I'm in an odd spot. I'm able to care for many, but I'm in no position to help myself. I'm an immigrant in constant precarity, and also not at all the most vulnerable of immigrants in the world (or of people living in the land of their own birth, for that matter). /x

I grew up atheist, and therefore full of wonder at our indifferent cosmos. No god, no purpose save what we make for ourselves. But we keep making TERRIBLE choices.

And it can be unbearable.

A child often has a better sense of right and wrong at times than we adults, many of whom have crafted lifetimes' worth of elaborate and academic/political vocabularies to justify the unequal and unjust positions into which we were so unthinkingly born. /x

The world we live in is unjust to its core, and it's more deeply wounded than we can hope to amend in our brief lifetimes.

I left my social contract of birth to feel the pulse of different argumentation, when the West seemed so caught up in *such* a reductive cycle of concern. I wanted to learn from something truly different, if I could.

But now, having felt that schism, I feel helpless to do much more with all the ensuing intellectual growth.

And this eats at me... so much, so frequently. /x

@MLClark this might be a good thread topic for a cosocall.. sometimes the calls are lighthearted. sometimes there is also terrific input from others.

You’re right, though. It is an unjust world and it takes collective action to change that. Some people seem blissfully unaware of the size of the challenges we face. Sometimes I find myself needing to zoom in a little, rather than out, just not to overwhelm myself. That meme @phase2 posted about the universe is fitting, here, perhaps?

@MLClark I know you’re just expressing yourself and feeling a bit overwhelmed and I understand because i feel the same often. I hope you’ll see though that the value you bring doesn’t go unnoticed. I mean thinking people usually like to fix things, especially when they’ve got experience doing just that. But you mention feeling frivolous and to that I say, so what? First I’m sure you’re not but 2nd You have one life that you’re certain of. In that life there should be things that bring you joy.

@MLClark I hope you take that in the spirit intended. I’m not always the best at expressing myself with words but I try to be truthful when I do and I’m not diminishing the things you’ve said, in any way. I just mean that remember that it’s ok. It to be a superhero all of the time, too. I think we women forget that, often.