Every now and then, I make a genuine bid at connection with a father who just cannot bring himself to do anything not on his terms.
It was met, as usual, with the silent treatment. I know he'll never change. I know he'll go to his grave this way.
My only responsibility is to forgive myself for making the bid at all, when I know it just gives him a chance to punish me for not doing things on his terms.
Ah well. I take what I'm feeling & use it in the work. Should be an interesting writing day!
@MLClark I'm sorry. This situation resonates with me. Everything you say is spot on.
🫂 I wish it didn't resonate, because it sucks, but I am so thankful to have the burden shared. May you always be kind with yourself as you move through your own version - bright and worthy star that you are.
@MLClark The drive to fix things is incredibly strong. A child will often spend an entire lifetime trying to do it. But some things aren't fixable, and yes, the only response left is kindness.