Also, I am binge drinking for the first time in months. I fell off the wagon, you guys.

I guess my copes couldn't... cope, today. I'm so sorry.

If I could find enough bits of his fur, maybe I can put the dog back together again & he'll be here once more.

It's a hopeless hope.

I did a bunch of work sorting boxes in the basement today and found a blanket that smelled like my now-deceased dog & had his hair all over it & yeaahhhhh THANKS A LOT, PEANUT.

I wonder if Jack Black knows what a sex symbol he is to about a bazillion nerdy girls.

Ok, this is the single most American thing I have ever seen. The only way it could be even more American is if customers got a free handgun with every purchase. https://www.npr.org/2024/03/27/1241186975/donald-trump-bible-god-bless-usa

TIL about the degloving method of fingerprinting. Annnd I did not need to learn about this.

Ugh, I utterly LOATHE trying to write an objective statement for a resume.

I definitely don't fit in the culture I live in. I want to opt out of it, even tho' I also recognize I'm stuck living in it. I mean I'd leave this place if I could, but hell, nobody wants broke-ass disabled Americans. & who can blame 'em?

My house, my car, my health insurance, my possessions, all of it - I don't live in a nation that values people's humanity & dignity. I'm in the US & this place is inhumane & dehumanizing. I don't want to take part in that anymore.

I mean I've been struggling to create a stable middle-class life for several decades now & frankly, I haven't been successful at it, & I'm tired of struggling. It seems less painful to just let it all go.

I'm feeling ready to just... let everything go, if that's what happens. And I'm strangely OK with that.

I know the economy sucks. I know it's harder to get hired at my age. I have a long work history & have a terrible time trying to figure out what the fuck to put on a resume anymore. Also, cover letters suck ass, thanks.

I don't plan to leave until I either have something else lined up first, or they fire me.

It's all very disillusioning (is that a word?) & frankly kind of scary.

Also did some preliminary research into other places I could work, temp work, side gigs & hustles, that sort of thing.

I could lose everything by doing this. I probably will.

I started working on my resume in earnest today, & contacts for references & LoRs. This weekend I meet w/sibling to discuss long-term plans.

The org's values & the way the folks on the bottom of the food chain are treated now (especially in my dept.) aren't the same & none of it aligns w/my own values anymore. So it's time to go.

When I started over 10 years ago it was a place I was proud to say I worked for. In many ways it still is. But the culture is changing, & a once-healthy NPO is getting more & more corporate cutthroat now.

This past week my manager - among the best I've had in my career history - was shitcanned & shown the door. The org is restructuring & the ppl they've brought in to do it are micromanaging bullies.

It's official: I'm leaving my job.

...& upsides that I strongly feel need to be available to everyone, somehow.

The best education shouldn't be reserved for the kids who test highest on whatever bullshit standardized test is out there.