It's official: I'm leaving my job.
This past week my manager - among the best I've had in my career history - was shitcanned & shown the door. The org is restructuring & the ppl they've brought in to do it are micromanaging bullies.
When I started over 10 years ago it was a place I was proud to say I worked for. In many ways it still is. But the culture is changing, & a once-healthy NPO is getting more & more corporate cutthroat now.
The org's values & the way the folks on the bottom of the food chain are treated now (especially in my dept.) aren't the same & none of it aligns w/my own values anymore. So it's time to go.
Also did some preliminary research into other places I could work, temp work, side gigs & hustles, that sort of thing.
I could lose everything by doing this. I probably will.
I don't plan to leave until I either have something else lined up first, or they fire me.
It's all very disillusioning (is that a word?) & frankly kind of scary.
I know the economy sucks. I know it's harder to get hired at my age. I have a long work history & have a terrible time trying to figure out what the fuck to put on a resume anymore. Also, cover letters suck ass, thanks.
I'm feeling ready to just... let everything go, if that's what happens. And I'm strangely OK with that.
I mean I've been struggling to create a stable middle-class life for several decades now & frankly, I haven't been successful at it, & I'm tired of struggling. It seems less painful to just let it all go.
My house, my car, my health insurance, my possessions, all of it - I don't live in a nation that values people's humanity & dignity. I'm in the US & this place is inhumane & dehumanizing. I don't want to take part in that anymore.
I definitely don't fit in the culture I live in. I want to opt out of it, even tho' I also recognize I'm stuck living in it. I mean I'd leave this place if I could, but hell, nobody wants broke-ass disabled Americans. & who can blame 'em?
@Impious_Jade i'm out of touch but believe you only list the last ten years.
anyone in #HR with a definitive?
I started working on my resume in earnest today, & contacts for references & LoRs. This weekend I meet w/sibling to discuss long-term plans.