One of the hardest challenges for learning to manage a severe #mentalillness is going through the process of finding the right meds. For seven years I was in a constant state of not knowing if the side effects were from coming onto a new medication, coming off an old medication, normal effects of my illness or uncontrolled effects of my illness. The last drug in my cocktail hit me the hardest coming onto it, but I persevered through two weeks of hell and now I fall asleep gently in its arms.