I am going to scream today. I need to. A good cathartic barbaric yalp!

I'm so over everything right now.

@realDDGlover Looks like my deck! I seriously thought it was for a second. XD

I'm dedicating the next hour of my life to creating something. Anything. Then I am reading.

After playing an embarrassing amount of #ff7remake and dealing with a migraine, I think I'm ready to tackle my inner demons and some words.

...and some laundry.

I'll check back with all the accountability related things.

It feels like spring, so we're spring cleaning!

I think I need to regroup until Sunday. Something about this week feels so out of control and overwhelming. I hate feeling this way. I wish I was able to maintain productivity amidst the stress better. But...right now I just can't. Perhaps admitting it will make healing from it easier rather than push myself and my denial.

I've gone two days in a row where I haven't taken a nap in the afternoon. This is a BIG deal. Gaming after work is doing wonders for me.

@DarkeConteur Same! We should be in the throws of negative numbers and it's been 40 all week. Everyone is excited and I'm the only one who is concerned about this!

Well, yesterday ended up being terrible. I didn't fall asleep. I got quiet because my kids decided to fight with me and each other all day. All. Day. So nothing was accomplished outside of me being incredibly angry.

I rage quit and watched "Nimona" followed by three hours of gaming while the kids were grounded.

Today I want to have a BIG day of writing. I'll be checking in often. If I don't, that means I fell asleep and that is definitely NOT in my game plan. I'm trying to unhabit nap time.

"Killers of the Flower Moon" was very good and very difficult to watch. So far it's my top contender for best picture, but I've only seen 3 of the 10 nominees.

My 9yo is playing FF7:Remake and he's sucked in. I'm so proud. #gamer #ff7

✔️ Drop off milk for swim team breakfast.
- Lunch with mom.
- Church.
✔️ Write words.
- Watch at least one Oscar nom movie.

Making good progress so far today. We'll see how long it all lasts. I've got a few hours until my lunch date. I think trying to write until then is a great plan for the day.

I just need to decide what movie I want to watch tonight. I'm leaning toward "Killers of the Flower Moon".

@thedisasterautist Yes! Exactly this! I'm not sure how I'll share these stories with readers just yet, but that's Another-Day-Me problem.

My universe I've created for my book is so big with so many side characters, I can't fit them all into my main narration.

So I'm writing a companion piece called "Asides" which is going to be random character development interactions that don't really advance the plot or distract from the plot. They'll probably be cozy experiences too.

I've never been one to do what's considered normal with my writing. I just know that I need to write what's in my head.

#writingcommunity #amwriting

I closed out my night twitching my game for a few hours. Something about computers and phones triggers my headaches. I'm assuming it's blue light. I do have glasses for that. Some days are worse than others.

Today is going to be a randomly busy day. I feel in control of the day at least, and that says a lot.

List for accountability:

- Drop off milk for swim team breakfast.
- Lunch with mom.
- Church.
- Write words.
- Watch at least one Oscar nom movie.

Woke up from my brain break with a mild migraine. Glad I no longer have to cook dinner.

How it's going.

👍 Day job.
- TAKE A SHOWER.
👍 Grocery order away.
- Do SOMETHING creative.
- Make dinner.
- Bingo night at the school with the kids.
- Read.

I'm going to take a brain break in my bed. Then I'll get back to the rest of it after I'm up. I'll try to break my napping habit next week. I can only do one thing at a time.

@amarand Put a hold in at the library. :)

@PaganMother My oldest son is like this too. So if nothing else, I need to learn it so I can help him do better with remembering things. <3