He's dead now, there's not going to be any repercussions for him. And I figured at the time that his death meant freedom - I could do my own thing.

What I'm realising now is that the effects still reverberate. Thinking it was all in the past, I didn't look for any therapy or anything like that.

What I'm finding now, in my middle age, is there are still effects - direct and indirect - that ripple across the ways I think about friendships and relationships

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He's dead now, there's not going to be any repercussions for him. And I figured at the time that his death meant freedom - I could do my own thing.

What I'm realising now is that the effects still reverberate. Thinking it was all in the past, I didn't look for any therapy or anything like that.

What I'm finding now, in my middle age, is there are still effects - direct and indirect - that ripple across the ways I think about friendships and relationships

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I'm closing in 50. I thought I had a handle on all this stuff.

But what I'm finding now is that there are still situations occurring where it's still having an effect, even well after I'd assumed it was all in the past.

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