The college friend who found me via one of my photo retail sites this past week, who I haven't had any contact w/ since early 2010s, is still married, living in Oregon but w/ 4 kids now.
He said he's started a music blog & that's what made him think of me. Not entirely sure what that's about.
After my divorce, 90% of the people I knew scattered to the wind and his reemergence in my life has left me feeling confused & unsure of how much I want to share about my life now. It's kind
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that he reached out and a part of me would like to reconnect but there's the part of me that wants to keep that world as far away from me as possible. There's still too much pain I feel over how I got treated by people who I thought were my friends.
And my mental and physical health took a huge blow, leaving me feeling very vulnerable.
I guess I've got some thinking to do about how I want to proceed. 😞
@see_the_sus That kind of thing makes me immediately question motive and wtf does he want. The divorce plague is wild to me.
I sure as hell will not have an affair with a married person nor am I interested in having a long-distance relationship. My marriage ended because of his affair and I refuse to cause harm. Plus, I also won't date people who are recently divorced. I won't be someone's rebound.
I do miss being in a relationship but I'm still not sure I'm emotionally strong enough.
@see_the_sus I just can’t be bothered. I have everything exactly like I want (and like) it. I don’t want to compromise anymore. That sounds awful, but I’m perfectly content with friends, family and myself.