#CoSoConfession #Politics #July4
I was born and raised in Hungary. Lived in Algeria for three years as a teen. Been in the US since the mid-90s. For the two decades my country of origin was not shit, I was away from it and living in a US going to hateful hell. Now Hungary is openly shitting on freedom and turning fascist. Some elements of the US are, too. I dragged my feet on becoming naturalized and only did it out of fear, finally, in 2018. ++

As an immigrant woman, I don't even know what it is like to be welcomed and wanted or affirmed in a community. Meanwhile, my country of origin is a source of shame. I have a degree in American Studies and a doctorate in political science. Although my mediocre career was destroyed, my brain cells are still here and I understand what is happening, much better than most. I feel no patriotism. I read accounts of folks being proud of the US, and I feel alienated. ++

Not only do I feel alienated, I feel homeless. I can't go back because the country I left in the mid-90s really isn't there any longer. What came in its place is a dystopia. The US I chose in its place at that time, also doesn't exist any longer. I am lost. And July 4 is exceptionally apt at emphasizing that I don't belong.

@publickovacs Unfortunately, many Americans have a very poor understanding of our history. And those who built this country, quite often on the backs and with the blood of others different from themselves, who've held the reins of power here since our founding, are slowly fading from relevance as they are eclipsed by the shades of history, and this terrifies them. Their biggest fear is that one day, karma will come knocking and those long oppressed will exact their revenge.
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