#CoSoConfession #Politics #July4
I was born and raised in Hungary. Lived in Algeria for three years as a teen. Been in the US since the mid-90s. For the two decades my country of origin was not shit, I was away from it and living in a US going to hateful hell. Now Hungary is openly shitting on freedom and turning fascist. Some elements of the US are, too. I dragged my feet on becoming naturalized and only did it out of fear, finally, in 2018. ++

As an immigrant woman, I don't even know what it is like to be welcomed and wanted or affirmed in a community. Meanwhile, my country of origin is a source of shame. I have a degree in American Studies and a doctorate in political science. Although my mediocre career was destroyed, my brain cells are still here and I understand what is happening, much better than most. I feel no patriotism. I read accounts of folks being proud of the US, and I feel alienated. ++

Not only do I feel alienated, I feel homeless. I can't go back because the country I left in the mid-90s really isn't there any longer. What came in its place is a dystopia. The US I chose in its place at that time, also doesn't exist any longer. I am lost. And July 4 is exceptionally apt at emphasizing that I don't belong.

@publickovacs it's so very easy to feel isolated. Know you ha e a community of support and caring here on CoSo. Reach out.

@SimplyZippy
Thank you

@publickovacs Do you cook or have favorite recipes from your youth? Lots of folks here love to swap recipes and enjoy hearing about foods of other places.

@SimplyZippy
I do cook. Recipes, well. It is traditional cooking where the teaching from my elders was like 'then you put in as much paprika as looks right' ...

@publickovacs You vould make me goulash any time 😁 @SimplyZippy

@stueytheround
I stopped making it because I stopped eating beef for about 15 years. Now I can digest small amounts of beef, kind of. So I could, maybe, attempt it.

@SimplyZippy