My partner and our daughter are checking out the Christmas lights around town before bed. #Audhd kiddo and I are curled up in bed because of irrational fear.

It's that irrational fear I hate and it hurts knowing that it has its grips on my son. And I'm sad because we miss out. I miss out. I feel guilty sometimes for feeling that but it's there.

But he's safe, and almost asleep and not #anxious because he's not in a situation that makes him so and that's what matters.