When I get cranky, it's usually because I feel trapped or ashamed.

I've lost a *lot* of interest in material hobbies I once prattled on about ad nauseam. They all remind me of a way I don't like being.

Still, I work in fields that require indulging a lot of chatter around such topics - and I can fall easily into old routines.

I just don't like who I am when I spend time on such things. Performative, at cost to being more fully human.

This meat sack needs a good shaking out & return to earth.