Heads up to people who have autistic friends or family -
Some days it's too much for us and we melt down. What it? All of it. All of you, to be honest.
We don't want to.
We want to have the coping skills.
We'll melt down in different ways.
Some of us cry.
Some of us rage.
Some of us withdraw and do the bare minimum.
But eventually someone who you love who is autistic WILL have a meltdown.
Your only job is to keep loving them.
Because you truly cannot fix it.
#Autistic
I have mini meltdowns of crying or raging. I'll withdraw and become robotic.
The most terrifying for my family is what I call my kill switch.
I will walk to a place where I can lie down, do so, and fall asleep in a split second and a bomb could go off and I Will. Not. Wake. Up.
My family, this household, has experienced it three times and after the first time I had to explain to just check for breathing and I am sorry.
In these cases I will sleep at least 13 hours.
#Autistic
At least.
This only happens after the crying, or the raging, or the robot doesn't give me safety.
My younger son is, this summer, pushing me to my limits.
I expect a robot before September.
I don't want kill switch.
It's not his fault. They don't assign autistic children to autistic parents and make sure that they're compatible.
#Autistic
But when you see me disappear for a few days or longer on here it's because I am in fact melting down, I don't feel like I'm fit for people, and I am putting all of what I have left into my family.
So be kind to people.
Don't pressure your autistic friends and family to not feel their feelings. No Cheer ups! Or Think about your blessings! bullshit.
We're really, awfully, human. It's hard.