#gym stats!
I was going to do an hour but this is supposed to be my recovery week and I’m already exceeding what the app suggests.
Middle path. I’m so tired of pushing into injury and losing progress so I’m trying to be smart AND dedicated.
Slow and steady wins the race. Boy did my ancestors learn that the hard way. No one has ever let us forget it. 🐇
be kind to your body. think of it as a living creature, with limitations.
sometimes a break is beneficial, more beneficial than pushing your limits.
🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
@holon42 The earliest thing I can remember concretely outside of disparate images, and untethered moments, was the realization that I was within a room inside my mind, and that I was and am separate from my body. That I was different from it
I'm explaining this with the benefit of about 38 years of reflection and understanding, it was much more primal at the time
I am locked inside this biological machine and as I've aged, I've come to understand it's not its fault. So I try to take care of it
@holon42 For the moment, this body and I inter-are. It'll have its death, and I will go on while it becomes part of other things. When our paths diverge its constituent elements will continue until the end of the universe, which is fitting because its constituent elements began with the universe
While it was never my choice to be in this thing. I'm working harder to look at it with compassion.The war is over between us, though it can be a struggle to hold the peace
It will never be me though
identity requires change, so there's that. the trap is also an illusion.
@NiveusLepus
what you say here reminds me of a dear friend, now past, into Stoicism. he had lifelong problems, spina bifurta, many surgeries.
diagnosed with bladder cancer, he decided against surgery and prepared to die at home, with good support.
when he decided enough was enough, he simply stopped eating and drinking, only seldom sips to retain lucidity to the end.
which he did. died in his bed, as he wished and when he chose.
he used the key to the prison, pulled the plug on the machine.
@holon42 I have studied Buddhism pretty heavily for the last 20 years, I've also studied stoicism in the last few years quite in depth and I have found great meaning and purpose in both.
Heathen by theology, Buddhist/Stoic by philosophy as i like to say. The seperate I describe is the most real and concrete element of my reality. It is the first thing I am aware of and it is the last thing I am aware of, and it is always there in the background.
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@holon42 There has never been a time where I have felt any form of true connection or congruence with this physical form I'm in.
And it's given me some super powers, and is also why I have some pretty epic scars.
Your friend sounds like an amazing person, to have faced such challenges with that amount of strength and grace.
I am grateful that you've shared some of his journey with me. "What is remembered, lives"
he was a remarkable person. unforgettable.
@NiveusLepus
suffering does make the body seem like a trap, machine,
but there are states of consciousness, when our precious creators, our living cells reach out beyond itself, to touch the universe in a grain of sand and eternity in a wild flower.
the Platonically influenced and Christianized image of body as a "tomb" of mind is an ancient and compelling image for reasons, now become "machine".
but yin/yang good/evil self/other subject/object
2 "sides" of a möbius loop. a moving gestalt