In other news, I'm completely rethinking the relationship w/my SO.
He's disabled. He's working hard on trying to get benefits & help. The relationship is pretty much all about that, & nothing else. I'm tired.
I do what he'll let me to help him, I feel a bunch of guilt, & I'm definitely not getting my needs met. It's still a newish relationship, maybe 18 months old, this isn't a decades-long marriage or something.
Seems I'm doing what so many women my age do: taking care of partner plus aging parents. I don't have kids, at least, I suppose. Hah I don't think I could handle dealing w/one more generation to care for! LOL
Every inch of my body hurts, every day. That doesn't surprise me.
I'm technically on vacation tho' & there's salt water literally 3 yards away from me right now. I think I'mma put on a bathing suit & get my ass into that salty water.