@SaltyVeruca I had been pretty stable for like 8 years and recently had to increase a dosage on my meds due to instability. Feeling stable again but quite distant. I am on two antipsychotics as my biggest issue is my brain always trying to claw its way back to a manic state. Need some pretty powerful brakes.

@BipolarArtist I found aging to be key for me. Things really changed. It's always about adjustments and being self aware isn't it?

@SaltyVeruca yeah I have a pretty good system for taking care of myself. Things could always be much worse. I am feeling a little thrown off though because I had felt like I had a little more control over my illness than I did. But like, no. This shit is real and does not mess around. I can react and adjust, but it is beyond my “control” you know?

@BipolarArtist It is but it isn't. Stay vigilant. You've got this.

@SaltyVeruca thanks. Overall I am doing quite well. My life is great. Just some days I feel like it is precariously balanced. Mostly right now the med change just makes me feel different and I need to find my bearings again. Remember what it is like to be me. Then maybe start working on my art again. Thanks for the kind words. It was nice to be able to talk to someone about this. Wishing you well too. ❤️

@BipolarArtist you're welcome. Any time.