I think I've lost my hope about writing. It's not the process. It's my goals, my drive. The reasons I do it don't match up with... I can't even explain this. I've spent most of my life... No, that requires words. And explaining the obstacles gets me a bunch of, "Just do it anyway!" Which leaves me feeling like I failed to adequately explain what those obstacles are for me.

I'm going to go cry.
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@LnzyHou There's no worry about me doing that. I just listen to stuff with headphones or earbuds. I absolutely hate phone conversations. Face to face, or needs to be in text.

@willmckinley I have knitted lots of things, but the one I love most will always be my outrageously long Doctor Who scarf.

Got a pair of wireless earbuds for listening to music while doing active things this year. I've never had wireless ones before. This is, like...this is some fancy, rich people, Star Trek stuff!

I am very easily impressed by little things.

@Oma_Trisha I don't know what to say. Everything sounds cheap in my mind. But I'm reading this - I'm listening - and my heart is with you.

Got an email that the Brooklyn Art Library is closing the Sketchbook Project. That's sad. But my book (My First Necronomicon) is listed as safe from the fire they had last year, and now I can request that it be returned to me.

You can still see it in their digital library.

https://www.sketchbookproject.com/library/S250136

Talking cats keep showing up in my dreams lately, and then last night it was a gryphon the size of a housecat who trusted me with their baby.

Gotta be honest...spending the night hanging out with a baby miniature gryphon inside a Paris museum isn't a bad experience at all.

@HoustonTx Tardigrades are amazing little creatures! My husband once bought me a necklace that is a little pewter tardigrade hanging onto a cord.

It was a rough day, and that's actually good for testing just how committed I am to finding something to be thankful for each day.

Tonight, I'm thankful that I get to exist in the same universe as tardigrades. 💜

@ContentWarningVirusB42 That reminds me I could probably get one now! We were in a different financial situation when I started, and LED hoops were brand new. Our income has gone up and prices have gone down. I could be my own light show!

@LisaHope I knew somebody who had one a few years ago. She loved hers! She didn't want to do all the tricks and dance moves I do. She just wanted the health benefits of waist hooping without all the trial and error. It was perfect for her!

@ContentWarningVirusB42 I've always been super clumsy, and then developed psoriatic arthritis about 20 years ago. When I said my doc talked up the benefits of hooping, everybody was kind of, "We want to be supportive...but it's YOU." Ice skating and hooping are the things I do gracefully. Otherwise, literally trip over my own feet.

The secret is having the right size hoop. Adults will be fighting the laws of physics with a hoop made for preschoolers.

With the right size hoop, then it's just patience and being mindful of how your body can move. I do off-body moves because waist hooping screws with my hip.

I need to get back into hula hoop dance this year. It really helps with my arthritis, does amazing things for my mental health, and it's one thing I'm not embarrassed about if someone sees me.

My autistic self abhors being OBSERVED. But my fat middle-aged body delights in having someone not know how I can make the hoop dance all around me like that!

Finished the neurographic piece I've been working on. It will be interesting to do more of these pieces, collect them, and see how the representation of my brain activity in art changes over time.
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Working on the neurographic art again. Taking my time. This is just the base colors in place, so it still looks very flat. #CoSoArt

If you take multiple medicines, be sure you're taking the right ones at the right times!

Thankfully, all that happened was I spent the day having all the symptoms of a migraine except the pain.

Accidentally took one anxiety med and a muscle relaxer instead of two anxiety meds this morning. Didn't realize what went wrong until later. Muscle relaxers are being kept in a different place now.

@XaoslordErie I'm thinking there's no way he's 78, but yeah...I haven't been in my early 20s for a long time, and my music tastes tend to go older than my age group.

Mother-in-law: "It didn't come with a book, but you could look things up online and..."

Me: *already playing "Iron Man" riff*

MiL: ...

Me: "If I can play something on a telephone, I can play it on this."

Everyone: "On a telephone???"

Me: *playing "Mary Had a Little Lamb"*