I can’t bring myself to feel happy, or joyful, or cheery as Christmas draws nearer this year. All I feel is uncertainty, anxiousness, and existential dread. I know, I know, I’m going to a therapist about how I’m feeling (got a meeting scheduled in January) like a grown up.

But until then… I guess I just can’t bring myself to feel genuinely happy… all the cheer just feels fake. Cedar-dog acts as a happiness-generator, so I spend time with him. #dogs #dogsofcoso #happyholidays #merrychristmas