: I do not know why, but today I am really struggling with dissonances. It’s not at all uncommon. It happens on the daily, but for whatever reason they are really smacking me around the head and neck for serious today. These sometimes overwhelming, dissonance days are when all of the things that people do, and I don’t do that really don’t make sense, things that are glaringly contradictory to their stated, beliefs, and goals and such, all really start pecking me to death. These are really …
(cont’d) …the days where my neurology does me zero favors, and it’s nothing to do with socializing and shite happenings in that department. It’s the reliably consistent collective bananasry that even though I know how/why it happens gets so heavy that it avalanches, like my subconscious has to vent the pressure. It doesn’t vent at other people. It just blows it all forward into my conscious mind, and I have to wade through it.