I don't have time right now to read all of your essay, (I'm a slow reader), but what I have read so far is very engaging.
I became interested in Socialism when I was in my mid-20s and soon discovered that my supposed liberal friends believed it to be communism. I wasn't expecting their criticism to say the least nor being told I should go live in Russia.
@see_the_sus
Oh, thanks for taking the time to read even a bit of it, and to share your experience.
Words are funny, aren't they?
Before some of our modern divisions between socialism and capital-C Communism, there was communism... and there still is small-c commun(al)ism today.
It all gets very confusing when we focus on the names of things, instead of reflecting on the actual *ideas* behind so many colliding terms.
Sorry your social-democrat friends were so cruel! No call for that, ever.