Big emotional drop and a ton of mental static today for a number of reasons. I'm trying not to show it and just get through it on my own.

Hooking up with two people you love but who don't love you back in that way, and with whom you're more of a prop in their play, is... a surprisingly self-destructive way to spend an evening, at least for me.

Sigh.

Wish my brain were a bit less fucked up and a lot easier to quiet down.