@TheNewsOwl I will need to look for the ouija board and talk to some demons or something. π
@Cynanthrope Or you could do alchemy or take up healing however that may not be as much fun. π
@TheNewsOwl Cursing and conjuring demons is more my style! π€£
@Cynanthrope π π€£ β€οΈ
@TheNewsOwl if you're going to give me access to the occult, I'm going to use it for mischief and/or going in search of infohazards that will haunt me for all times. π
@Cynanthrope π π€£ I would be the counter I believe. I am interested in such but more to protect against demons and such.
@TheNewsOwl @Cynanthrope The Occult is all that is hidden, not all that is evil. There is a vast infinity beyond the horizon we can see, and within that infinity there is room for infinite possibility. Light and Order to the point that it is a horror, and Dark and chaos to the point that it is a horror, and all that is in between.
It is within the balance and the grey that we find life, so if one goes looking for trouble, they are likely to find it, the same goes with protection or aid, etc.
@NiveusLepus @TheNewsOwl I know that there's a spiritual element but my mind goes to the many horror films I've watched when you say "occult" to me. Now can I go and summon demons for International Occult Day? π Demons are pretty hidden, I can go and look for them or something. Or a Hellhound...I get to cause mischief AND pet a pooch! π
@NiveusLepus I have had a pull to serve as a warrior for light personally for a good long time. @Cynanthrope
@TheNewsOwl @Cynanthrope And you shine brightly my dear Owl. Part of my creed is βIt is the balance that holds all lifeβ and βI am a servant of the balanceβ
@TheNewsOwl @NiveusLepus Not the spiritual type, I only really feel a pull to stay alive and try to have fun. I try to stay out of trouble but if you are going to give me some demons, that could change a little. π
@Cynanthrope π β€οΈ You are adorable Cyn @NiveusLepus
@TheNewsOwl @Cynanthrope Cyn is an experience, not just a person ^_^
@NiveusLepus @TheNewsOwl If you say so. π I just don't sit here pretending to love everyone because it is the trendy thing to do. I will honestly state that demons and/or a kick in the balls would teach those who don't learn from love and kindness. I also refuse to waste kindness reserves when many people don't appreciate it.
@Cynanthrope @TheNewsOwl One of the things I cherish most about you and your friendship is that you are direct and unvarnished. One never needs to guess where you stand.
@Cynanthrope I look at it as a place i wish to be personally not so much for looking for validation from others. While yes it is nice to be appreciated I simply prefer the energy for being positive. I look at it similar as wasting my time to be in the right position for myself. However light does have to also be aware when battling dark its vibration needs to remain high as well because that is how we light warriors battle the dark. just my thoughts. @NiveusLepus
@Cynanthrope I guess I do not see it as either or maybe. be wise about what is out there but also be the light is my mentality. @NiveusLepus
@TheNewsOwl @NiveusLepus that's fair enough but some people do just say it to be trendy. I have just had enough with giving only to be dropped when I have nothing left of use. That's why I won't pretend that I want to work to save the world. Why should I? My mentality is just one of wanting to stay alive and as comfortable as possible. I feel no greater calling or purpose.
@Cynanthrope I have been in depression for the first half of my life and had much turmoil that brought me down into a deep hole. I do not wish to be there or feel such again hence why I create my own goodness for myself. That is why I say I am not looking for validation anymore other then from myself. I don't like when my mind is in the space of regret or hating others. however I will stand for my beliefs and righteous justice. I am not always pure niceness. @NiveusLepus
@TheNewsOwl @NiveusLepus I create my own goodness, it's called "stay distracted and busy." That to me is goodness. π If I want to indulge a darker side, there's scam baiting. Indifference is more common a feeling than hate for me.
@TheNewsOwl @NiveusLepus BTW I have morals but I just don't have the same attachment to the wider world or society as everyone else. I can't bond with others easily so it is hard to want to go out of your way for them/feel duty towards them. Not saying that you don't feel what you feel but I have met so many who say different things behind closed doors. Some people absolutely do feel that way.
@Cynanthrope As i mentioned, i do not do what i do necessarily for others. I do it because it is where my heart/passion wishes to be instead of anger or depression and i have realized I can not simply not feel things so I choose to steer myself toward positivity. If i turned myself inward to much I would hate myself. it is why I cry after I get angry. Because I do not like that version and do not wish to be in that space. @NiveusLepus
@Cynanthrope Plus all of that past negativity has lead to much of my health issues so not good for me. with nervous system issues and feeling pain more I had to make the change. @NiveusLepus
@TheNewsOwl @NiveusLepus I don't really need a higher purpose, that's not something I feel is important. I never really have done. It is something that a lot of other people seem to desire though. I feel utterly detached from most people though so I suppose that is why I don't feel a need to serve a purpose other than "stay alive and keep comfortable."
@TheNewsOwl Most people are so ungrateful that being a healer or anything of the sort doesn't really appeal to me. I would want to amuse myself/get back at someone who really pissed me off or I think had it coming (think people who abuse kids or animals).
@TheNewsOwl ok, that last one is bad ass!
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