Well, I got absolutely nothing done today. I had several things planned out to do, but life decided I was to be pissed off and cranky.
There's always tomorrow.
Maybe I should stop setting expectations and just wing it from here on in.🤷♂️
You're reminding me of the writer Robert Walser, who also had Days Like That. :)
"In the dark year of 1933, after a reorganisation at Waldau, Walser was committed, against his will, to the clinic at Herisau, where Seelig first visited him in 1936 and encouraged him to resume his interrupted career. ‘I’m not here to write,’ Walser told Seelig firmly. ‘I’m here to be mad.’"
You got through today.
That's what matters most.
@MLClark Indeed. Although it is becoming tiresome. I can't believe that my entire life was meant to be like this. It was not what I was expecting, then again life never really turns out how we expect it to. I was just hoping for a little better for the final chapters.🤷♂️
Some of my favourite stories are about the mess of those final chapters: the weight of so much failure, pain, & exhaustion from starting over and over and over again.
I wish it were easy for humans to shake off the weight of unfair expectations and material limitations from our ridiculous cultures.
But they cling to the better stuff of our natures whether we want them to or not, eh?
Go easy on your meat-sack, eh?
The anger is legitimate.
It's also never the whole of us. 🫂
@MLClark I will say as well, I like it when you challenge me. On those days when I just feel like throwing myself a pity party you have a way of saying things that sting my ego without it coming off as an attack. You make me change my thought processes and that's what I need sometimes.💙
As a person who recognizes their own depression as "ego dialled to 11", I hear that. Sometimes the one thing we need to hear most is that there's a world outside the nightmare in our heads, eh?
Doesn't mean the nightmare inside our head sucks any less!
But it helps sometimes to remember that there are things beyond the nightmare, too. 🫂 Glad I can be that nuisance reminder for you sometimes!
Your presence certainly helps in my ego-consumed depressive spells, too.
@MLClark I'm honored that even in my own failings I can help others. There's no greater feeling, for me anyways, to know that I've said or done something that has helped carry the load. No of us are immune.
@Tacitus_Kilgore
You too, Tacitus. 💛 I love that you are honest and open and sincerely striving. I've never seen a post from you where you weren't. As markers of a life well and truly lived go, one really can't do much better than that.
🤗🕊️