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Im in that wonderful state with my anxiety where I feel fine, everything is on the bounce but the idea of a phone call even with a friend or family feels like a marathon with a 50lb pack on in terms of difficulty, and leaving the house feels like I'm going on some forever journey beyond the stars.

Yeah I'm great, so long as I get to exist in my bubble and engage in only specific forms of mass communication like shouting into the void... Great... yeah!

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Well this is kind of a whole mood for being alive in 2024...

I've largely just existed the last few weeks. My normal routines and disciplines have been nowhere to be seen.

Meanwhile there's this kind of chuckling disbelief, at it all. I know its happening, but it doesn't feel like it should be real. Reality is off kilter, and everything feels up in the air, like well... *shrug* So that's a thing.

I know I think differently than most folks but I think I'm shocked at the gap between how I figured things were going with this election and what happened. I am overwhelmed at the magnitude of the choices made and what it says about my fellow citizens.

It feels vaguely matrix like. Suddenly the world doesn't feel like the world I know, and even more divorced from the basic standards of decency and rationality that I thought were here.

My old normal feels strangely performative and shallow.

Good morning groovy souls!

I need to pull up. I'm feeling pretty good. I'm trying to bride the gap between feeling better and the motivation to take the next step. I'm still kind of bunkered in and hiding, I havent been able to reestablish my routines.

I will get there. It always takes me longer to get restarted than I'd like or expect it to take.

ADHD Burnout and overwhelm. Which sounds terrible, but in reality I'm ok... just kind of a lump at the moment.

It's been a while since I left a fun review

Good morning groovy souls!

I'm having a hard time pulling up. I'm in a pretty good place mentally, but it's not translating to much at the moment.

I guess I'm still processing. I'm letting myself have time, while trying to push a bit each day.

Rebuilding like this always takes me more time than I expect but eventually my paws will catch traction and I'll be going like I was again.