I feel like an awful human right now, but it's just a mood, and moods will pass.
While I'm this angry with myself, though, I'm going to be scarce online.
Sorry for having worried folks last week. This low was triggered by doing something necessary but ugly to remedy a difficult situation.
I have many flaws as a person, so I try to keep from situations where they might be exploited - but I don't always succeed, & my failure to "fix" myself then leaves me furious.
It will pass. Take care, all.
@MLClark You are a good human, but the world doesn't like to do anything clean.
There are no destinations in life, only the journey, only the horizon. We reach one to find another.
What I am most impressed by in the good humans and good beings in general is their resolution to grow and seek better, no matter the flaws that might hold them back.
Know that you are loved and cherished as a buddy, warts and all. You are more than your worst traits, and always shall be.
@MLClark I know from my own journey how hard it can be to overcome those still small voices within that roar with all the conviction of a hanging judge.
Within the storm, or outside of it, you are always loved. And while you may have to endure those thoughts, the love and care that is held for you shall remain like an unweathered stone waiting for the sun to return.
You are worth patience, and kindness and love on your worst day, even though you may feel otherwise, it is none the less true.
@NiveusLepus
Thank you for this kindness, Rebecca. All the kind comments were unbearable to read through earlier, when my noggin was telling me how insufferable I am and how anyone who truly knows me knows how insufferable I am - but I'm glad to be in a space to receive this grace now.
Big hugs to you. Hope you're doing beautifully, and being kind to yourself, too!