This has been one of my more intensive "Missions" of the last few years. Every time I think things are going to slow down into a regular routine and flow, errands must be run, or things take a turn.
Her pain has been a monster to manage, and its been a struggle each day.
It's very hard to get consistent time to focus on anything outside of care. I never know how long there is going to be between requests/needs.
This is not a complaint, just me outlining my current reality.
Service is the path. This is what I am for, but after almost six months of being on, I am looking towards August with the hope of taking time for myself and recovering for a while, seeing to my own routines.
I still need to get Farthest Star out, and get back to writing. My hope is that after this initial week or two of hard recovery, she will settle and improve.
That was always the plan. I hate seeing her suffer knowing there is nothing I can do but provide palliative care.