Wee vent:
Cut three people to low-contact and put my father back on no-contact this week (my fault: I made a bid to heal our relationship; he answered with his usual silence).
They're two halves of the same whole, though: people who have very specific expectations of me--to fill a void in their life, help them achieve a goal, or serve as a receptacle for their interests on their terms.
I never feel less "seen" than when I realize how much of my life has been spent navigating such people. 1/2
I have a great many problems to fix, but many were made by trying to dodge *other* problems. A life of evasive manoeuvres.
A part of me strongly longs to disappear, go where no one knows me, and work quietly far from my many failures.
But wherever I go, I am, so that's not gonna fix the issue (unless I become a lighthouse operator?!).
I have huge problems to resolve...
And most still reside in me.
I dunno. Maybe I need to buy more forks. 2/2
@MLClark FWIW I am privileged to not know your past and today, the person I see before me is a wonderful person and I am truly glad we met. Here's to the future, my friend 🍻
I too am very glad that we met, Stuey - and I promise, it's not just so that I can live vicariously through your beer selections. 😅 (But by all means, have a pint for me when circumstances allow!)
Many thanks for your kind words, and for living so wholeheartedly and with great optimism even though there is so much trespass all around us.
If we begin to build the world we want to see by carrying it with love in our hearts, you're setting a smashingly good example for us all. 🤗