Every now and then life delivers a blow that momentarily breaks you. Horrible experiences are like amyloid plaque, they build up on you as you pass through this nutso life.

@MidnightRider Yes. Especially since reaching mid-life I sometimes feel a brutal despair—there so little we can do about the agonizing separations, the vulnerabilities…so many incomprehensible realities and unanswered questions. I find the world of my thoughts to be more real than the world around me. I’ll think: perhaps I’m crazy? But then I’m like: nobody notices…guess they are to? Then I let all that go and try to enjoy being alive. Very strange.

@WellWellWell3 @MidnightRider I'm with you there. After what happened to my cat and I a couple of weeks ago, I concluded I cannot trust anyone. I stopped worrying about the future. Mostly anyway. I live for now. Right now I am worried about getting through another week and having enough food and medical supplies. I'm more stressed than normal.