People say "call someone if you need to talk." I did and nobody picked up. Therefore I will just use this space to vent even if nobody sees it. Maybe I will feel better. I've been thru hell.
My therapist dropped the ball on my care after my old one got a new job. It took a month to get into her. Saw her once then had to go another month without care before I could see her. That typical "all booked up" BS.
After I saw her again, didn't she tell me she was going on vacation for a month! Wow, another month without care. Mind you I see her every two weeks, down from seeing someone every week due to severe PTSD
After begging and pleading with her to get someone to fill in while she was out, someone saw me once the whole month she was on vacay.
Now I have seen her twice and she does not even begin to know how to process trauma. I told her some indepth shit I went through as a kid, and she sat there nodding her fucking head. Thanks but no thanks
I asked her to find me a nee therapist and said I don't think it's working out. Told her it's not personal. I was very professional and polite and realised why I have not slept well the past six months. I just needed someone to talk to that fucking listened and showed they cared. Yeet! I fired her and put a call into my case worker to see if he can call there or elsewhere to find me someone who won't create a quality of care issue like this one I just said goodbye to.
Today I yeeted that "friend" who stopped taking my calls, stopped messaging me, but continued to re-post whatever came up in her doomscroll. My now ex-friend even "liked" one of my FB posts but could not be bothered to ask me if I was OK after I called her and left a message saying I needed someone to talk to. She reaped what she sowed. I won't miss her. Too bad, so sad for her. Next!
@ATXJane Thank you, and better friends since the one ex-friend I mentioned has been too lazy to bother with me. Idealize, devalue, then oops -- I discarded her before she had a chance. And if she sends me a lunacy letter, I'll just use it for story fodder like the others. I suspect now she's a covert narc, just wish I figured it out before.
@JeniRizio
Unnecessary drama rarely yields a healing result - for anyone.
I hope you find a therapist who is a really good fit!🌸