I saw my spine NP today and came out with some new interesting info and one a very annoying revelation.
The annoying part. Either NM Orthopaedics didn't submit the records request from my dr's in IN, which I've asked & saw them fill out & who have told me 3xs they did. They being the front desk lobby folks. Or, my hospital network in IN, never followed thru even though they said they received the request. All this has been going on since Jan and yet it wasn't until today
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that my NP tells me, after I told her that I thought the Branch Block & RFA procedure I had last year, was to treat my sacroiliac joint pain, "I have no idea. I only have what you've told me." Turns out she's never seen all the spinal treatments, tests, and procedures I've had since 2018. 😡 Fucking hell.
Soooo, needless to say, any future treatments are now on hold until she gets those records.
I'm left trying to understand why almost 7 months on, my records haven't been
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shared and why, she and my other dr (hip ortho), there at the clinic have not once mentioned this?
I go to these appts and I tell them about all the years I've had pain, the treatments I've had, and not one single PA, NP, dr, thought to say, "Oh? I've never seen any of your previous records." J-F-C
I like my spine NP. She's compassionate, helps me understand all the different terminologies, why I have XYZ pain instead of ABC pain, and answers my questions
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but this "I have no idea because I've never seen your past records..oh and yeah I've been seeing you since end of Dec." WTF
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On to the interesting part.
I don't have sciatica. Apparently, sciatica is pain that radiates down the back of the leg, from the back. What I'm experiencing is called Radiculopathy. Sounds like something out of Harry Potter. 😏
I've never had pain going down the back of my leg. It's always been from the right side of my spine to the right
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hip and down the side and front of my right leg to the knee. What could be, probably is, causing the numbness in my front and side thigh when I've been sitting for longer than 10 minutes, is a condition called Meralgia paresthetica. One of the top contenders for causing this problem? Obesity. Yay.
The great news is that one of the disc fractures has healed!! I didn't even realize this was possible.
So, if you're still reading all this blabbering, you win a hug from me! 😂
@see_the_sus I’ve lived with chronic back pain for about a decade after I had a disc rupture and send me to emergency surgery and I still think that is soooooo fucked up. No one knows what it’s really like and it’s different every day. I feel your pain and you deserve credit for sharing. It’s hard.
♥️ Thank you.
I had a dream last night where I was with a friend and we leave my apartment and are walking somewhere when I realize I'm walking fairly well. A slight imbalance but not much else. And then I realize I'm not using my cane and I exclaimed, "What the hell is wrong with me? What is going on?"
I don't know whether to interpret this as awesome for the lack of cane or sad that I immediately thnk something is wrong with me because I'm walking ok. 
@see_the_sus for what it’s worth, that sounds like a happy dream to me. If my pain suddenly disappeared or if I regained feeling on the soles of my feet I would definitely freak out.
@see_the_sus I get it now! The brain is a funny thing. Let’s cross our fingers that next time you go right back to your “normal” dreams. But I still think it’s a sign of the good kind of acceptance.
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Well, this is the weird thing. Rarely in my dreams am I disabled. I've had a few where I'm in physical pain but most of them I'm walking around doing stuff without the recognition I'm disabled in real life. Granted most of my dreams aren't the rosy rainbow Teletubby kind but I've never stopped in the middle of one and had a recognition that I "should" be disabled and "what's wrong with me?" comment. That's what pisses me off the most because IRL I talk to myself this way. 😞