TO-DO GOALS:

- Day job
- Get trash together
- Shower
- Garden
- Write
- Read
- Dishes
- Order groceries
- Beta

Now that I'm no longer sick, I'm ready to get back onto all of my wagons. We'll start with a slow pace, of course, but I need to stop allowing these sorts of set backs to completely derail me to the point of rage quitting. I'm really good at rage quitting lately.

Please, don't tell me I need more compassion and grace for myself. I've got plenty of that already. What I need is to actually get up and try again. I'm tired of sulking in my failures.

S2: Day 153 (518)
Word Count: 20
Total: 45098

Just wrote tiny snippets by hand. Hoping to do more today.

S2: Day 152 (517)
Word Count: 0
Total: 45078

I just didn't want to. So I didn't.

Made the mistake of watching "Severance" all night, and now I'm absolutely exhausted today. Not to mention the weird dreams I had because I went to sleep with that as the last thing on my mind.

S2: Day 150 (515)
Word Count: 953
Total: 45078

S2: Day 151 (516)
Word Count: 0
Total: 45078

It's been an interesting weekend. That's about all I can say.

Welp, I'm sucked into the rabbit hole of "The Morning Show".

The past week, I've spent catching up on TV and trying to re-find my creative voice. Because it keeps getting lost. I don't know if it's life stress, or my own self-doubt. I've got 7 or 8 more days of work and then I'm off until the Fall. From there, I can hopefully figure things out.

S2: Day 149 (514)
Word Count: 34
Total: 44125

Yesterday was weird. I don't really have any other way of describing it.

S2: Day 148 (513)
Word Count: 0
Total: 44091

Yesterday I was really tired. I watched two movies and then slept fairly solidly. Woke up today feeling like a new person. I'm going to roll with it for as long as possible.

I used to laugh when people didn't recognize Clark Kent as superman. That ends now. I put on glasses today and none of my students knew who I was.

I'm supposed to garden today. My poor tomato plants are probably sad or very dead. But my body is very much betraying me this week. That's pretty much been the sum of my week in general: betrayal. On the plus side, once I feel better? I'm ready to really dive into doing the things.

S2: Day 147 (512)
Word Count: 20
Total: 44091

Did a few quotes for a friend's work and called it a day. Brain feels like Swiss Cheese, and I'm ready to be done with the day already. First, I need to make it through the day job.

S2: Day 146 (511)
Word Count: 0
Total: 44071

Did some work related reading yesterday, so I'm slowly getting back on track. Just don't have the energy for writing quite yet.

So my day job is at a school. I admit it is really hard to want to go in today. On the flip side, my kids go to the school I work at, so the only comfort I get is knowing that I'm there during the day to know what's going on rather than waiting at home and wondering.

And that's as much into this as I'm going to get.

S2: Day 145 (510)
Word Count: 0
Total: 44071

Yesterday was terrible for me health wise. Covid came back negative, and I seem to be much better today, so it's off to the day job I go! Even if the day job is the last place I'd like to be today.

S2: Day 144 (509)
Word Count: 0
Total: 44071

Feel like garbage physically, so I guess the words still aren't happening after all. Time to go back to bed!

S2: Day 143 (508)
Word Count: 0
Total: 44071

Had a busy day, and I hadn't planned on writing anyway. Today should be interesting. We'll see what actually happens, but I'm going to try something.

S2: Day 142 (507)
Word Count: 0
Total: 44071

I've read 2.5 books. Hoping to make that 3 by the end of the day. Still feeling pretty depressed. The goal is to just ride this out for a bit. Tomorrow I'm going to try for words. Today is going to be too busy.

S2: Day 141 (506)
Word Count: 0
Total: 44071

Still no words. I'm going to make an attempt come Monday. Until then, I'm going to just sort of...try not to be depressed in my blanket burrito.