I've decided may is "reset" month. Physically I've been in a lot of pain from ignoring my body's needs. Mentally I'm in pain because I can't keep up with everything I wanted to do. So reset. Start from the beginning. Summer is when I'll be able to really crush it. The day job ends, and I get a lot of time back.

S2: Day 1310 (496)
Word Count: 0
Total: 43607

I think I'm going to take more time off from words this week. Something is still not quite feeling right. I just need to make sure I don't forget how to do it because I wait too long to try writing again. It's a tough balance.

S2: Day 130 (495)
Word Count: 505
Total: 43607

I wrote some good words yesterday, but it was a hard one.

Okay, today I am dipping my toes back into social media/writing. We'll see how this goes. I'm pretty emotionally drained, but I need to channel my energy productively.

S2: Day 129 (494)
Word Count: 0
Total: 43093

Yesterday was terrible. Hoping today will be a lot better. Just gotta make it through the day job.

I hope everyone is having a better mother's day than I am. Teenagers. I don't think I need to explain more?

S2: Day 128 (493)
Word Count: 0
Total: 43093

No words will be happening this weekend. Just going to read and regroup from all the socializing.

Finally updated my #wattpad stories. If you're looking for a free read about:

- Alien invasions/Dystopia
- Dragon shifters
- Muses finding soulmates
- Aliens/sailormoonesque teen adventure
- Post-Apocalyptic Pokemon

Then you might like what I've put up there.

https://www.wattpad.com/user/cloudsriser

What I've been doing on break:

Reading. Lots of reading. I can't really focus on the TV right now. I have a lot of shows to catch up on, but none of them feel appealing at the moment.

So books have been my escape. Audio, print, graphic novel, ebook. I've been hiding in all formats. It's been quite nice.

Hoping to be back to writing mode by Monday.

S2: Day 127 (492)
Word Count: 2
Total: 43093

Two words. I'm not terribly upset about it because I needed the day to myself. It was a long one and a rough one. I might do 0 words for the weekend so I can focus on introverting properly in my free time and prevent a people overload. We'll see. But I miss my fictional worlds terribly.

#introvertproblems

S2: Day 126 (491)
Word Count: 25
Total: 43091

Slow and steady. Doing a lot of reading. A LOT of reading.

S2: Day 125 (490)
Word Count: 12
Total: 43066

Two small sentences.

S2: Day 124 (489)
Word Count: 23
Total: 43054

I wrote a sentence and then went into my burrito of blankets.

I've taken the time to breathe a little and read a whole book in just about one sitting. It's amazing how freeing that can be.

It's hard to stay away because this place has been really safe for me to share thoughts and feelings and just be myself. But I'm also empathic, so I'm going to sort through finding my balance. But that's social media, right?

S2: Day 123 (488)
Word Count: 539
Total: 43031

I wrote enough, and it was really hard. Really hard. I doubt I'll get much done today. I'll check in with word count things tomorrow too.

Going to take a small Social Media hiatus. I'll be back, but I just need to close all these extra tabs out because what I'm reading on them hurts my heart too much.

But I will be back.

Didn't really get that nap in, but I started reading "Taste" by Stanley Tucci, and finished "Grace and Frankie" final season. That's a resting win.

I've written a handful of words, but I think I need a nap before I can really dive in and appreciate this book.

Survived the day job. Now let's hope I can get some words out!

From my devotional today. I certainly needed this reminder that I don't need to justify being a writer (shortened by me):

"...if our work is good work—if it helps cultivate a world where creation and creatures flourish as God intended—then we are free from needing to justify our jobs. We work and create simply because it’s what God made us to do. It’s who we are as his image-bearers. And that is enough.

So go and do the God-ordained “filling” of this earth with freedom and joy today!"