PTSD? from 
and covid?
free advice from a psychiatrist.
the years of pandemic and lockdown are still working on us powerfully from the inside. But we're not really acknowledging or metabolizing this.
living with the echoes of those years, but we've forgotten what made the sound.
recorded in the dark middle of pandemic. But offering it up again now because it helps make sense
of still unfolding epidemic distress as individuals, as communities, as a species.
https://podcasts.apple.com/ca/podcast/on-being-with-krista-tippett/id150892556
@holon42 I no longer have trauma triggers over covid. As a epidemiology hobbies, I knew what protocols should have been followed and that did cause me great trauma. So bad that the air around was heavy and menaving during that first big spike in Detroit
(And subsequent fuckery, not providing a federal response, pitting states againstceach other for supplies. etc, etc, etc.
I suspect the reason is (less due to me processing it) it and more to do with the personal/family dangers in real life.
@holon42 *menacing
Not sure if anyone else felt this. I do not believe this was psychosomatic.
I track weirdly strong intuitions.
From "gut feels" to a LOUD voice in my head shouting a danger/warning.
The strong voice first happened when I was 3rd grade when I was approached by men who wanted me to get on the car to help them "find" some street.
My life was saved that day by a big booming voice saying "don't move your feet"
(they were in a car 15 feet away)
It was incredible
Next
@holon42 ^^ I'm just working on intuition at this point
Last word
I believe the quantum bit field is the interface to all things non-physical. So if someone or even G*d needed to perform a miracle, they can construct it in this quantum space. It's how I rationalize weird shit. In my quantum understanding << this is how stuff like immaculate conception can be theorize
Thanks for letting me run on.. I need to meditate deeply to make these connection. Lately its been breath work due to stress
@holon42 I can't stop talking just yet lol
π§ββοΈ believe the physical universe is manifested. By powerful thought and intention. (G*d)
"Let there be light" was G*d's intention and it manifested
I came to this understanding using an intention meditation where I asked to understand the universe. I've been obsessed w/this since i was a kid
I got my answer in a massive data dump to my brain. I had bever experienced anythiing like this. Every answer made perfect sense. That was my epiphany 2 yrs ago
interesting experiences ππ½
there are scientists working up arguments in support of mind/intention as a primary force.
i've seen several working papers on Academia.edu on that topic and similar lines of thought.
your instincts saved you from danger. ππ½
@holon42 probably death. I didn't even remember that happened (didn't tell mom or school) until I was 30 and saw an Oprah on how pedos temp kids. Freaked me the f put
yes, i guess so. the realization of the danger you avoided would hit hard even after a long time.
@holon42 and I remember the car and what they look like. That all came back during that Oprah show.
I forgot all about it because I didn't feel threatened. I was confused why they were asking directions of a little kid who doesn't drive << I'm not 100% sure this was my own thought (in addition to the loud "do not move" voice)
It's weird, I know. But I've experienced weird stuff.
yes, i've had some strange experiences too.
the psyche is powerful, can be a friendly or deceitful, like Alchemy's mercurious.
instincts should not be ignored, although not always followed either.
especially instincts about danger.
@holon42
Lastly (and sorry I'm running on off topic) π³
Many Mediators believe (and have proven) that our consciousness is very powerful. Yogis have reportedly levitate and other weird stuff. I experiment a d practicw to see if i can increase my abilities. I've had some success (compelling to me) but nothing super compelling that could prove this to others, yet.
Theory is they manipulate the spin
of the quantum bits inside our atoms. I have not even attempted this. Too advanced. Lol π§ββοΈ