𝘛𝘰 𝘵𝘳𝘶𝘭𝘺 𝘣𝘦 "𝘍𝘳𝘦𝘦 𝘛𝘰 𝘉𝘦" ... 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘱𝘢𝘤𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘶𝘯𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘯, 𝘳𝘦𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘯, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘴𝘶𝘱𝘱𝘰𝘳𝘵 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘧𝘳𝘦𝘦𝘥𝘰𝘮 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶; 𝘢 𝘨𝘢𝘳𝘥𝘦𝘯 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘭𝘰𝘰𝘮.
𝘛𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘭𝘪𝘦𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘳𝘦𝘭𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘴𝘩𝘪𝘱𝘴, 𝘧𝘢𝘮𝘪𝘭𝘺, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘴𝘰𝘤𝘪𝘢𝘭 𝘮𝘦𝘥𝘪𝘢.
𝘞𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘢 𝘵𝘰𝘹𝘪𝘤 𝘴𝘱𝘢𝘤𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘶𝘯𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘯 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘯𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘸𝘪𝘴𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘣𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘢𝘮𝘦 𝘦𝘯𝘦𝘳𝘨𝘺, 𝘢𝘵𝘵𝘪𝘵𝘶𝘥𝘦𝘴, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘯𝘦𝘨𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘪𝘰𝘳𝘴 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘺𝘰𝘶, 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘴𝘱𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘳𝘺𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘦𝘴𝘤𝘢𝘱𝘦 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 ...
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Discovered I have cPTSD from sexual abuse and neglect when I was a child--and from my adult actions as a result of being broken. I am reading a great book right now, and starting the healing work. I have hope that I can start healing for real. AA got me sober, long term, more than once, but the step work never uncovered the real trauma. (Yes, I am a chronic relapser, especially in the past.)
@phac3ti0us Healing is different for everyone and takes different paths for everyone. It takes time and patience and willpower. ❤️ If you want to heal, you absolutely will. ❤️
People might ask, "Who doesn't want to heal?" Well, let me tell you. One needs to know they need healing. AND one needs to put down that tool box of broken defense mechanisms that have become your personality but rarely work anymore.
And when I say you, I mean me. I will clean up my syntax. I will never tell anyone what is right for them. We each have our own journey. And, I have never known what's best for myself till the pain is unbearable. Nothing has inherent existence.
@phac3ti0us I have never met a person who knew they needed healing. I have also never met a person who ever truly healed in a complete way. They healed just enough to get by, to trick themselves and others into thinking they needed to make no more progress. They lack the will, the support, the direction, and the honest understanding and awareness of themselves to succeed. Truth is where to begin always ❤️ But the end ... its something only the soul will know.
@thewebrecluse
Thank you for these beautiful, true words.
"They healed just enough to get by, to trick themselves and others into thinking they needed to make no more progress."
You've been reading my mail.