Well. I knew something was going to end today. Don't ask me how I know, I just knew the 20th was going to be that day. I've felt this way for just over a month.
Turns out I was right.
My partner of 22 years has decided that she wants to end our relationship.
And here I thought it might be my last day, seeing how my depression has been getting worse.
I guess in a way it is my last day. But not what I had planned on.
Don't worry, I'm not a danger to myself. In fact, there's a kind of peace.
@Tacitus_Kilgore I admire your honesty and I believe you when you assure me you're safe for the moment. Breakups are rough. I'm more than willing to be available when you need me (timezones and all, but you know what I mean). DMs are always open for you. Be gentle with yourself, please.
@stueytheround Don't get me wrong, my heart is broken. But it's been cracking and chipping away for awhile. We've been having problems and it doesn't come as a complete shock. It's the timing. How did I know today was going to be that day?
In a way it gives me something to hold on to. Like there's a meaning. I will keep going. I know I'm on the right path in my life now.