@Patti1120 My father died when I was five. I understand
@Patti1120 No, it will stay with you, but as you know, keeping it on background is better for your well being. My eventual "stepfather" was a gentleman, but my mother had other boyfriends, that was a different matter. It's part of who you are, forever.
@gemswinc my father left me when I was born and never looked back. He made a deal with my mom. No child support meant no kids in his life and he agreed and left. Then came abusive stepfather. So I try so hard not to be bitter but there are times I’m effin angry and pissed. I get over it but the rage never dies. Ever