#FirstCoffeeThoughts

I am queer and Black. I suffer from two chronic illnesses and had chronic pain for over 15 years. Doctors treat me as worthless and lazy when I'm anything but. I grew up with brutal abuse, alcoholism, and mental illness in my family. I've been bullied, beaten, betrayed and mistreated since age 9. Am I angry about the state of the world? Anger is a total waste of time and energy and only lessens you. The world now is just Hell and I was born into that and survived it so ...

I've talked often about not abiding any negativity in my feed or in my life. I don't have time for people's nonsense. I don't have room for negative viewpoints or people's displaced anger and dark energy. I've spent my ENTIRE life battling that trash and I simply don't have the patience or energy for those who want to dwell in a place of darkness especially when there is so much light and so many reasons to delight in the wonder and beauty of life. You take in what you put out. You can choose.

I abhor optimists. I am above and beyond all a REALIST and even a depressive realist at that ... and even I know that this is MORE to this world and our lives than darkness and anger and negativity. Even when faced with abuse and hopelessness and brutality and even EVIL ... there are other roads one can take, there are other viewpoints one can have, there is a power inside that you can tap into and use to rise up and survive and EVOLVE beyond the trash and wretchedness around you. Choose.