@MLClark
I so much hear what you, so eloquently, are saying .. losing love for a field, feeling "ridiculous" for ever believe, and oh, how true, "the whole world's full with shattered paradigms...". So many industries are falling into an abyss of malfunction, greed, imposture, mob and cynicism.

I so much hear you as you are going to the inner source, as it is, indeed, if not the only fountain left, it is for sure the richest one to 'rekindle joy'.

May the new chapter be luminous. ☀️