Every now and then I try to bond with my very difficult father.
I shared a note yesterday telling him my next novel is almost ready to submit to my agent.
As per usual, he ignored the notice (he calls it "parental envy", which keeps him from celebrating any success on my side) & sent along his usual random death notice, which always serves as a tacit lament about how his own life is near its end (and has been for decades)--implying that everyone needs to cater to his fears of mortality first.
@MLClark We can talk in DM if you wish, but publicly I just want to send you a virtual hug and assure you you're not alone. No matter what I accomplished, my father never once said he was proud of me or loved me. I was the bigger person, time and again opening the door, but he was determined to put me down.
I finally realized the problem was him, not me. There's only one judge of my life, and that's me.
My family is who I choose. You are in that circle. π
And you in mine, Stephen. Thank you for the risk of vulnerability with me, too. π π€
@MLClark I think part of his problem was he came from a broken home. He was raised poor in El Centro CA (near the Mexican border) during the Great Depression. His father died when he was eight. His mother remarried but was brain damaged in a car wreck when he was around 13 or so. He joined the USAF at age 18 and was shipped off to the Korean War.
I think he didn't understand what a healthy family was supposed to be like. Doesn't excuse his behavior, but explains it.
@MLClark And think about how many lives you change for the better every day.
When I was in police work, so many times we saw incorrigible teens from broken homes. Thankfully, none of my siblings turned out like my father, although we all have our demons.
We need to swap stories sometime in DM, preferably with multiple glasses of wine. π·π·π·
But the bottom line is we don't let the bastards beat us. That's what they want. He wanted me to be him, so he'd feel better about himself. He lost.
@MLClark Et tu. π
@WordsmithFL
Drinking game for an open CoSoCall over a later VOY episode, is what I'm hearing! :D
But for now, again, thank you for finding your true self despite being dealt such a difficult opening hand. π€
You make the world a better place with your wonder and delight in the best of what we create, in science as in fiction, every day.