I think I'm done. +13 years and the chaos has only grown. More than a week vaca and the night before I return to work is sleepless in anxiety of the chaos I will inevitably step into only to find it's worse than even I expected. And I'm powerless to stop it. Tired of endless bandaids because the actual work required is constantly blocked. Tired of being told, year after year, that it will get better but just getting worse.
It's my fault. I should have quit. Over and over again they threw money at me because I have outstanding troubleshooting skills. I wish I'd been experienced enough to see why that was so important to them.
I was ok with it when we were a little company and it was all for one and one for all, struggling to keep the plates spinning. That was years ago though, now I'm paying for someone else's yacht with my sleepless nights.
@RileyNorman definitely time to go. do what's right for you. hope you find something most excellent to head to. or take a break first & recoup before finding your next role,