Need to vent. I can’t tell you how disappointed I truly am with people. I try not to get hopes up for ANYTHING cause ppl in my life are just disappointments to say the least. I hate and I mean hate when ppl say “I’m here for you just ask” and when I ask they can’t do it. I have the habit not to ask for help because of past experiences (hence why I only count on myself)

It truly upset me to hear “sorry can’t do it” when I do ask for help. And I mean I only ask when i truly can’t do on my own

I have a surgery coming up in October. I’m nervous and excited at same time but l can’t get one fucking person in my life to pick me up from hospital not one family fucking member not a best friend nobody. I am so fucking mad and upset right now.

So this is why I trust no one and do everything and I mean everything on my own. Can’t count on one fucking person in my life. You know how that makes me feel.