I know I think differently than most folks but I think I'm shocked at the gap between how I figured things were going with this election and what happened. I am overwhelmed at the magnitude of the choices made and what it says about my fellow citizens.
It feels vaguely matrix like. Suddenly the world doesn't feel like the world I know, and even more divorced from the basic standards of decency and rationality that I thought were here.
My old normal feels strangely performative and shallow.
I've largely just existed the last few weeks. My normal routines and disciplines have been nowhere to be seen.
Meanwhile there's this kind of chuckling disbelief, at it all. I know its happening, but it doesn't feel like it should be real. Reality is off kilter, and everything feels up in the air, like well... *shrug* So that's a thing.