As much as I love my mother. I am absolutely tired of watching her suffer.
I feel like I have been sitting death watch for 3 days only for it not to take her.
My mental health is suffering. It has been since August (diagnosis). November since treatment failed.
I’m sick that I feel this way.
@MrsBentoBako #FcukCancer indeed. I’m sorry. It must be exhausting in all the dimensions. Please don’t forget to care for yourself.
@MrsBentoBako I feel you. My mom passed from cancer 2 years ago, and I was her caregiver. Those months were the most impactful of my life. So much stress & emotion... mentally, physically... just overwhelming. Of course you have those feelings. Give yourself grace. And after... give yourself more grace. This is tough stuff. One day you will look back & be grateful that you were there for your mom. Sending love & strength. 💜
Yours is a normal and natural reaction. I went through this as well. I know it doesn't feel good to be in this mental space, but it's a very healthy thing to (a) know what your feeling; (b) acknowledge the source of the feelings; (c) and to express your feelings in order to help diffuse them.
As my mom kept telling me before she lapsed into unconsciousness prior to dying: 'Make sure you take time for yourself and for living".
@Bliss
Thank you. I know this is normal. I have been through this before. Just not this close to home for me. Nor have I not had someone to have a degree of separation from me. I’ve always had her to help me. I’ve always been there to help her. Now neither one of us have the other.
wishing you peace and healing 🫂
@MrsBentoBako ❤️