@MarvelousMadi13 I also often feel bad - guilty - about the fact that my marriage ended and how it went down. My ex-wife is a good person and deserved better. I remind myself that I also deserved more. Life is so complex. I don’t really know you, but if you told me that it had to happen for you to be true to yourself, then I would believe you and understand. Besides, in many ways we cannot help who we are, and regardless of any past mistakes, we all deserve love, first and foremost from ourselves.