I know that's cryptic, but...
While I'm handling the latest run of emotions that this person is struggling with right now, I just want to share the broader cautionary note:
Pedestals suck for everyone.
They reduce our ability to be the messy, ever-striving, ever-learning critters we always are.
As much as you can, try not to elevate anyone in your life to the point where they lose the ability to be human, too. 💙 Cults of celebrity are never healthy things.