@JeSsA be kind to yourself 💖 The amount of love we have for our creatures isn't hampered by the layers of crap that people heap on each other, and that can make the grief worse when they're gone.
My wife's cat George from before us just passed and it's been hard on her. Her ex (they're on good terms) did video calls with her and the cat, so she got to say goodbye. I've never seen her so upset as I did in that moment.
I'm grateful for the time you had with Creed 😺 Pets a blessing.