@Dbot yeah, thats what people tell me, and objectively thats true.

Thats where I feel like a failure, my work didn't account for my success. It was luck 99% of the time, and when things went downhill, I was completely powerless to fix it.

If I had to define it, thats how I feel. And its the feeling that haunts me going into new projects.

It has a lot to do with why I am a truck driver now. My success is based on showing up and working hard, not the whims of an oppressive algorithm.