Started to deep dive into healing childhood trauma that was recently triggered. I thought I had put it all behind me and now realize my personality is a hodge-podge of survival techniques. Yay me! But what I didn't expect was the self-reticence and dismissive feelings leading to avoidance of entering into the fray of memories.

I have to really be in the mood to work on it even as I know it is the best thing for me. I really hate the struggle.