12/20/23.
Worst day of my life.
Have done the whole cliche one day at a time, “new normal” blah blah blah
She was my only child.
She was the only positive contribution I made to this world.
And now she’s just … gone.
I’m sorry to dump all this here; on some level it’s easier to be raw here; I don’t allow my real world to see that.
Coping mechanism to be sure.
But it’s been 3 weeks of sheer hell.
😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
Pure. Sheer. Brokenness.
Completely lost.
So, so very dark.
😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭